March 24th, 2026 10:27 PM
A profession of my undying devotion to my cat
I love my cat.
Beyond descriptions of her multicolored fur
her bright green-yellow eyes
pools of darkness
a glimpse into the evil fiend that lurks below
(and above)
I love my cat for her curiosity
her feistyness
her determinate desire to stay in my mother's room
I love my cat.
Her silent grace,
her cute little face.
I will love my cat
as long as she lets me.
March 24th, 2026 8:01 PM
I was reminded was again of my failures,
and I have right to believe they're right.
I was reminded once again of the futility-
no,
I was reminded once again of the
consequences of my actions.
It seems my mind convolutes the words of others.
Twists them into attacks against my person
Shards of glass to swallow and regurgitate
mouth bleeding, pleading an innocence I know is not there.
I admit
it says more about me,
than the people I surround myself with,
and therefore, I have taken it upon myself
to not construe meaning where there is not.
Harder done than said when it seems,
to me,
a product of nature
To read the words of shame unspoken
and spool around them like a cocoon.
Nevertheless,
I was reminded again of my failures.
The consequences that come of being too tired to try
and too prideful to ask for help.
I do believe death is always an option.
However, I'm not sure that is the route
she wants me to take.
March 23rd, 2026 11:46 PM
The motors of my mind spin,
an unkown source
pouring electricity through my wires,
constructing words
that spill
out the hinges and gears
of my rusted metal cask.
And yet
(at least for today)
I feel human.
March 23rd, 2026 1:18 AM
I find it funny
To think of little monsters
scrying,scraping,clawing for my data.
For a moment in my bed,
under the still too bright
blue-ish glow of my screen,
surrounded by the vast,absorbent darkness of night.
While I sit,
writing magic words
on an internet box,
building my own little gremlin,
to avoid the voices,
clawing,scraping,crying,
in my head.